E76: From Suppression to Surrender: The Journey Home

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Michael Singer: Ative, Jai Masters. People like to think spirituality is getting high, being happy, feeling, love that. That’s the path. Well, it’s not. Spirituality is about releasing why you’re not high, why you don’t feel love, and why you have so many problems with life. It’s not about getting rid of the problems with life. It’s not, it’s about why are you having a problem with life? That is a big difference. If you think that what spirituality and life, beautiful life is about is that life is a way that you don’t have problems, you’re wrong. It’s about life is how it is and you don’t have problems with it otherwise, what you’re saying is I am where I want to be. That’s what you’re saying. I am where it’s at. The only problem is you’re not. Therefore, I have problems. You my state of being, my way of looking at things, my heart, these are where it’s at.

If you all would behave, I could feel the love I want to feel. I could feel the God I want to feel. I could feel the flow of Shakti that I want to feel so you guys get your act together or there’s something wrong with me that I can’t handle life. I have to change, not it has to change. I have to change. The problem is always me, always. Why? Because if I’m not in the way, there’s no problem. Mayor Baba used to say, man, minus mind equals God, man, minus mind equals God. I assume it includes women and everybody else. Alright, what does that mean? It means the only problem is your mind. Whose mind? Your mind. What about everybody else’s mind? That’s not your problem. Every else’s mind is not your problem. If you let go of your stuff in there, you don’t have a problem.

If you don’t carry that junk of your opinions, your preferences, your hopes, your dreams, your concept, your views, your likes, your dislikes, that’s just garbage. It is stuff that you picked up during your lifetime that made impressions on your mind and your heart If they were nice impressions, you like those things. You want those things. You believe in those things. If it was not nice impressions, you don’t like those things, they’re wrong. If they’re really wrong, they’re the devil itself. They’re just events that happen in your life. I talk to you about all the time. Do you understand how small your life is? You don’t like to think like this. You want to think like this. The burden you carry in your life, the struggle, the problems, the emotional pain, the fears, the anxieties, the tension are because you’re busy collecting this garbage inside yourself and saying, this is me and everything better match me.

It is not you. Your consciousness descended watching a mind. Okay? Everyone’s got one watching a heart. Everyone’s got one looking through a body. Everyone’s got one at a world. It’s always doing something. It changes. Your body changes. Your heart changes. Your mind changes. The consciousness does not change. If I take a light and I shine it on something, it’s still the light. It’s not what it’s shining on. If I move it to another something, it’s still the same light and what it’s shining on. If what I’m shining on breaks, it’s the same light shining. The light does not change. Consciousness is consciousness. Is this stuff called awareness? That board is not aware. I’m aware of the board. My mind is not aware of me. I’m aware of my mind, my thoughts. I see my thoughts. Sometimes you say, oh my God, my thoughts are driving me crazy.

Whose thoughts? You use the right words because the perspective is a natural thing. My thoughts are driving me crazy. My is a possessive pronoun. I wonder who owns them. I don’t care about your thoughts. I don’t care about my thoughts. How’s that? I’m not used to say that. Sit there and say, if you come and tell me your problems, I’ll listen for a little while, but then I’ll stop. We’ve all got some me, I got ’em too. It’s like they’re meaningless. Those thoughts in your mind of what I like, what I believe, what I don’t like, they are meaningless. They would change in a minute. One more event. Take place in your life and you’re thinking differently. Therefore, it’s bulba dish. It’s just a thought. Is there anything wrong with your thought? No. Fine. You get a thought. Have a thought. If you’re married to your thought, if you think your thought is right, it’s real, it’s truth, you have problems and guess what?

You will have problems because you’ll fight the world and it will upset you and it’ll disturb you because it doesn’t match you. So your thoughts, they’re fine. The thoughts if you stand by the ocean and watch the waves come in, fine. They’re waves. They come and they go and they do different things. Sometimes they’re big, sometimes they’re just small. There’s spray, there’s current, they’re nothing. That is what your thoughts are, your personal thoughts. I’m talk about your intellectual thought. We’ll get there. Alright? You know what personal thoughts are. They’re the ones that are about, you know what impersonal thoughts are the ones that are not about you. Alright, there we got it. Do you have personal thoughts? Ha. Like the vast majority of all your thoughts are personal thoughts. What do I believe? What do I like? Why did he do that? I don’t know.

Should I go here? Just check out how many of your thoughts. If you can maintain witness consciousness for a little while. You watch your thoughts and you see which ones have the word I, me or mine in them, and you’re going to find out all of ’em, just about all of them. What do I want to do? Should I go to the movie? I don’t know if I liked that. I didn’t like that before. Maybe I won’t like it now. Oh, I would like to do that. Why didn’t he call me? That’s the personal mind. Is it a separate mind? No, it is not. If you run a computer program inside of a computer, it’s still the same computer. Run another program, same computer, run another program, same computer. You can run programs. Your mind is like a computer, a tremendously expansive computer can do anything.

You can think anything you want. Can’t you think of a dog? Think of a cat, think of a boat. Think of a star. Bam. Your mind is amazing. A program that you can run inside the computer mind is called the personal program. It’s about what happened in my life, what I liked, what I didn’t like, what I believe, what I don’t believe, what I hope for, what I wish would be, it’s about me. Is that all you can think about? No. You can think about the stars. You can think about God. You can think about the air conditioning, building things. You can think about creating. Think about art. You can think about anything you want as long as it’s not about you. There are lots of programs that can run in there and then there are no programs. It’s called empty mind. You’ve heard that you guys are into stuff.

What’s empty mind? Stupid mind. No, it’s not stupid mind. It’s mind. I can’t even talk about it chills me. It’s a mind that’s not running a program. Can there be a computer that’s not running a program? It is what’s called potential. It has tremendous potential. It could do anything if it’s not doing anything. Does that make it stupid? No. Whoa, man. Look at the potential that has. It’s open, it’s clear. It can do anything. It’s empty mind. You are capable of empty mind, but you are running these programs in there and the main program you’re running, you run other programs, you do work, you go to work, you do different things, but most of the time when you go to work it’s about you. People go to work so they can have a nice weekend. People go to work so they’re going to earn money.

Would you go to your job if they didn’t pay you? I would. I always would’ve Not one single minute in my life I ever worked for money. You work because you’re serving. You work because it’s fun. You work because you have work to do. You work because you grow. You work because it’s challenging. You work because you’re going to be doing something, doing something productive, but very few people would ever go to work that way. Do you like your job? No. No, but I make good money and I like my vacations. That’s terrible. Seriously, you’re wasting the majority. What percentage of your life is your vacation is your weekend? It’s a tiny percent between your sleep and your work, not your vacation and your weekend. When you’re awake, there’s very little of your time that you’re having a good time. No, no, no, no, no.

I will not accept that. For me or for you. I care about you. When should you have a good time? All the time. All the time. What I sleeping. You have nightmares. You have nightmares because you suppressed stuff because you weren’t having a good time. If you didn’t do that, you have a fun time going to sleep. He’ll fly off and do things and have a good old time. Just check out what amount of your life you’re having a good time. No. Why? Because of your personal mind. Because of your personal mind. Because what you did is you experienced life because you have senses. You’re supposed to experience life. You’re experiencing life. It comes in and there are things that came in that didn’t feel good to you. They disturbed you, yes or no? What did you do with them? What did you do with the things that came in that disturbed you?

I stored them inside of me, said they bother me for the rest of my life. The entire science of psychology is because you did that. They’re out of jobs. If you didn’t do that, you stored everything that ever literally. I’m telling you something, everything. Everything that bothered you if it was hot out, you start thinking about moving somewhere. You start thinking about getting better air conditioning like everything. Everything that bothered you, you kept and you molded your way of thinking around the things that bothered you. I don’t want them to happen determines who I marry whether I have children. Every single thing that you’ve done is because you have past impressions that you stored and now you think that way. Most psychologists say man is the sum of his learned experiences. You like your thoughts. I don’t like my thoughts. That’s ridiculous. Not those thoughts.

If they could change it in a minute, what have you found out? You had this whole foundational thing about how Yout thought your father touched you, your mother touched your preacher, taught everybody touched you, and then you went to school and you found out it was a whole bunco. Or better yet, you learn Newtonian physics inside and out, all the laws and you found out that Einstein disproved the wall. They were only true in a little tiny box. They only held for a box the rest of the universe they didn’t hold. Whoa man, it blew your mind and you found out, gee, the mind can be wrong. Guess what? It’s always wrong. Everyone’s mind is always wrong. I’m talking about personal mind. Everyone’s why? How many experiences have you had? I don’t know. How many experiences have you had? A lot. Really? Every moment you’re having an experience, how many are you missing?

How many are you not having that exists all over the place while you’re having the one that you’re having somebody want to guess at a number. 700 billion zillion quillian raised at 7,000 power. So how much do you know? One out of 700 billion zillion quillian. That is called statistically insignificant. So if I tell you nothing, don’t you argue with me? How can you know anything? If you just know one thing, if you turn your head to the left, something else, look up something else. Coffee takes two seconds longer. You’re not in the same place where you were. You don’t have that experience. So what you’re programmed with is garbage.

Take a breath. I’m not trying to degrade you, I’m trying to elevate you. People sit there saying so it’s the thing nice about myself, not about that self. They can’t know anything. Why? Because it’s the sum of those learned experiences and then you sit there and say, but it’s all I got. If you have nothing, then let it be nothing. Then you have everything. Two great masters wrote books called the everything and the nothing, but they said they’re the same. If there’s nothing, you have everything of the nothing. If there’s everything, there’s no difference with anything. It’s all everything. So basically you have nothing. You have less than nothing because you have one thing. I don’t know why I have such deep history, so deep that I’m having an experience. I think because I step back enough to while I’m having experience something inside of me knows, look at all the ones you’re not having.

Therefore that experience I’m having has no value, not from a personal point of view. This is called waking up. You wake up and realize I’m married to my mind, that’s not a very good spouse. It causes a lot of trouble because you have done this with your mind and you did it. God didn’t do it. God is the consciousness that’s looking at everything. What is the nature of consciousness. From the yogi tradition is called satananda. That’s another name for consciousness. Eternal, conscious, ecstasy, eternal always, never changing, always conscious, aware of itself in a state of ecstasy. That is what your consciousness is. That is what God is. That is what the universe is all everywhere’s universe, but what it’s looking at isn’t that. It’s looking at most of the things you didn’t like. How many of you stored the white lines on the road?

How many store the cars that drove by? You don’t know anybody in ’em. How many stored the people in New York that walk down the streets? You don’t know. No, they go right through, don’t they? How about the trees? Do you ever see a tree? How many trees, how many trees have you seen in your life? Do they come back and haunt you? Some of them do. Which ones the one that wasn’t the way you wanted it to be? The one when I drove by it, it looked like the one I fell out of when I was three. I’ve been upset all day. I stored the things that bothered me inside of me and now the things that remind me of them bother me. The fact that something might happen that is similar to what I didn’t like bothers me. So you stored the things that you didn’t like and now you worry that they might happen again.

You relate to things that remind you of them. This is why you have trouble. The world is not a problem, it’s just an event. It’s a moment. It’s a world. I spent some time with the astronomy department recently and I asked the question, he’s a great astrophysicist. I asked now that we’ve gone out there and we studied everything with the Hubble and the James Webb, how many stars have exoplanets? They basically said, we now believe that every star has at least one or two exoplanets. Well, there’s 300 billion stars in your galaxy. Go visit another planet. You won’t find anything like this one. We got those telescopes look pretty far out there. I’m not saying anything like this one. They haven’t found anything. Rocks, dirt, sand, fire, gas here. Are there some things other than that? Flowers, trees, bugs people. Animals kind of interesting place. Anything going on, there’s nothing going anywhere else, and all you do is complain.

All you do is talk about what’s wrong, what you don’t like, what might happen, what did happen. You not only can’t handle what’s happening, you can’t handle what might happen in the future and worse, worse. I’ve grown a lot through this stuff. The worst is you can’t handle what already happened and will never happen again. Your childhood, your first boyfriend or girlfriend that dumped you when you were 12, it can’t happen again, but you still don’t like it and you can’t handle it. Like I started saying, the problem is you. The problem is not the world. The problem is you stored all these problems inside of you and now you have problems. That’s the strong. I think I’m really driving it home right? How can you have problems about the past when it will never happen again? You made it through it. I don’t understand.

I want you to not understand. Why would you worry and have problems with something that can’t happen? The future might happen present. Maybe something’s happening but not the past and I’m telling you, psychology will tell you all your problems are because of your past. That’s the entire science, psychology of Freudian. Psychology of psychology is you stored all this stuff from the past and now you’re trying to run away from yourself and you’re suppressed and it comes up. That’s all the entire problem. What’s an enlightened master? What’s an enlightened master? You without that stuff, if you didn’t store that stuff inside of you, then the world doesn’t look the way you’re projecting it to look right now. You look out into the world and you see yourself. If you had trouble with color red at some point or I like the one your ex told you they were done with you, they’re leaving you and you’re out there looking at this beautiful sunset together and I took that time to tell you you don’t like sunsets anymore.

If you had a song, our song, we got married to that song and now you’re divorced and it was not a nice divorce. How you doing that song? Don’t play that. I told you not to play that you stored these things inside your mind and inside your heart and now you’re in trouble because you can’t even imagine that they might happen again. It bothers you. You lose sleep, you’re anxious, you get tense. Are there things that make you uptight? Are there things that you’ve never experienced before? You know nothing about. My favorite one is this, blah. How you doing with that? With what? So noun by the way, not a verb noun, right? How you doing with a, you couldn’t care less. That’s true of everything. It’s only because you’ve experienced it before and you stored what you think you experienced. Now if I say the name Ben and that was your ex, you get uptight.

Stop that. Why’d you say that? I told you not to talk about that. I told you I don’t like that. Do you like being like that? Isn’t it fun? Isn’t it fun to worry all the time? This is spirituality. This discussion is spirituality. Why? I don’t want to talk about God. I want to talk about what’s keeping you from God. You want to know about God become one with him. Christ said, my father and I are one. The great masters were merged. You want to know God merge. Why? It’s right inside of you. You are the consciousness. That’s God looking at your stuff. What are you looking at that garbage for? If you stop looking at that, you are liberate. It’s called liberation. Freedom doesn’t mean freedom for yourself to do what you want. Freedom means from yourself. See, you don’t have to wash that garbage all the time.

How would you like to wake up in the morning and know nothing can go wrong? Nothing. Look at me. Nothing can go wrong. Why? Because you didn’t define wrong. How did you not define wrong? How do you do that? I guarantee you, if I ask you to fill out a chart and you describe what you call wrong of experience you had in the past and the person next to you says, wow, I wish that happened to me. That’d be fun. Take a breath. You did this. What do you mean I did this? My mother didn’t know. No, your mother did what she did and that was a very long time ago. You are the one that stored it in there. How do I know you did it? Because nobody else in there is is mommy in there? You stored the stuff in there but she ain’t in there.

She’s dead. She died a long time ago. You still got stuff going on in there. Can you imagine what it’d be like to not have that in there to be free, to be liberated? That’s what MTA means, a liberated soul. Free from what? Free from your stuff that’s stored in there. Spirituality is 100% about purification, not I don’t eat. I swear I wear white and that’s not purification. Purification means you don’t have that garbage in there. How would you like to wake up in the morning and know you’re free? You’re free. I told you. How does it great being wake up in the morning, I’m back.

Bring it on. Let’s see what’s going to happen today and whatever happens today is what happens. Okay, so you catch on that what you have done with your mind is the problem. Your mind is not a problem. Mind is beautiful. I can think. Who gave the ability to think? I love that people are proud, they’re smart. How dare you? You didn’t do it. How did you get your mind to think? Now what does it think about? How did you get it to be able to? Logic. You didn’t do anything you, it was a gift that was given to you. How dare you take pride in that? You should be humbled by it. Just wait until it stops working. You are still in there. It don’t work. Can’t remember anything. How do you know you can’t remember anything? Because I’m in here and it’s not doing what it used to do.

He’s not giving me people’s names and so basically you were given the gift of a body. You were given the gift of a mind. You were given the gift of a heart. You were given the gift of a world and you made a royal mess of that gift. By doing what? By having experiences that were not pleasant. That’s not your fault. Rattlesnakes are not pleasant. There’s all kinds of things that go on that when the vibration comes in it doesn’t feel good. Can you handle that? No. Why? It’s part of reality. The Buddhist call it the nature of things. Everything has its nature. Every color has a different vibration. Every person is different. Every person has some learn experiences. Everybody had different experiences. Therefore everybody’s different. Can you handle that? They’re God consciousness, awareness of being, looking through the veil of the sum of their learned experiences and being filtered when it comes out.

They’re a conscious being and they’ve built this veil. They built this mask made out of the sum of the learned experiences and everybody built a different one. Don’t you dare think there’s a soulmate out there. I’m going to find my soulmate who thinks just like I do. How could anybody think the same as you do if everybody had different experiences? Has anyone had the same experiences as you? Every experience in your life? Has anyone ever had the same experiences as you in every moment of your life? How close have they? Not even trillion miles away. Will anybody ever? No, because it’s a motion picture. It keeps changing. So you had these unique experiences. You didn’t know any better. I’m going to blame you. You don’t feel guilty, alright? You couldn’t handle them. Do you mind if I talked to you straight? Nobody else will. You couldn’t handle them.

Would I handled some of them? No you didn’t. The only ones you handled were the white lines in the road and the clouds fasting by and the people you don’t know, you handled those very well. You saw them, you experienced ’em. They went right through. It’s well, I handled it well. There are things that happened that I liked you didn’t handle well. What do you mean I didn’t handle it? Well, you want them to happen again. You want that to not stop happening. I love you so much. Don’t leave. No, come on, I’ll spend some more time together. Okay, well that didn’t feel real good. Now somebody leaves for a while. All you do is think about them. I only have eyes for you dear. Oh, there’s other things to see. No, not in me man. I got caught in what I liked. That’s all I want to think about.

That’s all I want to do. And if you come back and you’re not the same, go away for a few weeks, not to mention a longer time and come back. I don’t want to be there to discuss that. Why? Because it’s not going to be the way you want it to be. You had made up in your mind a moment, didn’t you? What it’s going to be like when you see them again and how are they going to treat you? And they’ll probably bring flowers and give you a gift. Oh my god, in your favorite chocolates and whatever or tofu, I don’t know you or do you not do that with your mind with things that you like? Does it ever match that? It cannot possibly match that. You just made that up. You saw a movie and decided it would be like that so you can’t even handle the good things and you sure as heck can’t handle the bad things because you stored them and you’re afraid.

Let’s say you’re in love is wonderful and before they left there was a little bit of a spat. It’s a little tiny little something, but it bothered you. It bothered you the whole time. Now you have in your mind a whole different scenario of when the person comes back, you apologize. They apologize. We just love each other so much. We talk about it and I’m so sorry. You got the whole thing right? That person doesn’t even remember one single thing that you spent the entire two weeks about. It didn’t hit them the same because their father didn’t do what your father did. Are you awake to listen to truth? Are you not doing that with your mind? That is the cause of all suffering. In other words, that’s the problem. The problem is not life. Life is amazing. Yes, of course it’s weird. Of course there’s yin and yang.

Of course there’s dark and light and good and bad. Of course there’s all those things, isn’t there? Always was, always will be. It’s part of everything. If there’s an up, there has to be a down is a light. There has to be a dark. Just by definition. If there’s a tall, there’s a short. The minute you play with duality, it’s all dual. Only when there’s no duality. When there’s no differentiation, it’s one. Then there’s no up down. It’s all Einstein’s relativity. What’s north? There is no north go somewhere else. Somebody else’s north. It’s all relative to where you’re standing. Where’s up? Go into outer space. Show me up. Show me north. By the way, if you never got it before, that is literally Einstein’s fear. Relativity. Don’t think you’re not smart enough to understand Einstein three relativity. If I’m standing here, then that’s to my left.

If I’m standing there, something else is to my left. Something else is to my right. It’s all relative to where you’re standing. Is that not the basis of relativity? Right? I can get much more complicated, but the basis is there really is no absolute place to stand from, which you can say up, down, fast, slow. Just in case you don’t get it. Lemme ask you something. If I take a spot and there’s another spot, I can measure the distance. What if there is no spot? What’s the distance? There is no other spot. If there’s non-duality, there’s no time, there’s no space, there’s no distance. Those are things that are relative to each other. What is time? The amount of something that it takes for this to happen. What if there’s no points? What if there’s no differentiation? Then there is no time, there is no space, there is no distance, there’s no anything.

Okay? It’s not so complicated. The problem is we do have a fixed point. Us. That’s your fixed point, your views, your opinions, your preferences, your hopes, your dreams, your likes, your dislikes. Everything else is judged based on that. It’s all relative and everybody’s different. Why can’t we just be together? You get to be different. You had different experiences. You’re going to be different. I’m marching with signs. So are you and your signs say the opposite of what my signs say. Is that understandable? Of course, of course. It’s understandable. You had totally different experiences than me. If I had your experiences, I might have the different sign. Answer me. Can you say yes or are you too caught in yourself? Just understand that you’ve been programmed by your past experiences, but you are the self, the consciousness, the being that is aware that you are watching a mind that’s telling you this stuff and it’s serious about it, isn’t it?

But so is theirs. I know it’s so hard. Can you handle that level of truth? That’s called transcendental truth. It is the absolute truth that you are going to be programmed by your experiences and people sit there and say strong about a subject, right? One more thing here. Believe that traffic lights are a pain. I don’t like ’em. Or a pain in the butt. Who likes to stop for ’em. The less traffic lights, the better you get to do your thing. Alright? Or you’re in Germany on the Audubon, you can drive as fast as you want. Wouldn’t that be fun? You got these views, less traffic lights fast as you can and then your wife and children a killer, a car accident, you are putting lights everywhere. What’s the matter with it’s government? They understand. They should have protected me from that. That’s one more experience.

Your entire view of life changes. That is the truth with everything. Well then how do you live? You stay back here, but I have a mind. I have an ego. It is the sum of my learned experiences. It is what’s called my self concept, how I think of myself. Is there a way you think of yourself? I’m a Democrat, I’m a Republican. I like women. I like men. You have a way that you are, believe me, you did not make it up is the sum of your learned experiences. Depending on where you grew up and what your parents were like and the rabbi and the preacher, every single, your first state, every single thing left impressions in there and they developed your self. You’re going to have one. If you’re here in this body, you’re going to have a self-concept. The question is, are you married to it?

Are you addicted to it? Does it run your life? Do you really believe it’s right? I hope with this one talk you’re not wrong. There is no right or wrong. It’s all relative to the experiences that you’ve had and so can you get to the point where you realize I’m in here looking at him or her. I’m in here looking at him or her. She has opinions. She has preferences. She has things that make her feel good. She has things that make her feel bad. She has thoughts that make her feel good. He has thoughts that make him feel embarrassed and terrible and guilty about something he did 24 years ago when he was six years old. So you’re sitting there looking at something but you’re not to something you’re looking at that’s spirituality, but you’re not getting there while you’re married to your stuff.

Well, you think you are what you’re looking at and you feel so strongly about it, you’ll fight with anybody. You’re not open one iota to listen to anything, right? They get like that, don’t they? Do you understand that this is a spiritual discussion. It’s not about making believe that you’re not caught in yourself and then thinking about God because they’re going to tell you what God. You’re going to think about the God that matches what you want. Something happens. Oh my God, it’s exactly what you wanted. The probability is like nil. Who did it? God. There is a God. There is a God. I’ve experienced it. They call that a miracle, don’t you? That’s a miracle. What if something else happens that is equally improbable and you don’t like it? There’s a devil. There’s evil in this world. I didn’t do anything to deserve this or there is no God.

See, you even brought God into that stupid programming. Wake up now. Do you understand why it’s all happening the way it is? People say, why does the world have to be like this? Do you understand? Everybody had different experiences. Everybody’s completely, not everybody, few people aren’t. They’re pictured on the wall, completely absorbed, addicted and married to their experiences and we don’t agree. So we form little cliques and clans. Okay? I’ll tell you what, I don’t totally agree with you, but there’s one thing I feel strongly about and you do too. Okay? We’ll get a little group together and we’ll be against the other people that don’t agree with that thing. Imagine all the people, the only way they’re doing it, they ain’t doing it. By all agreeing, we all had different experiences, so how’s it going to work that we could have peace by stepping back behind ourselves, having compassion and understanding that other people had different experiences.

They’re going to be different and that’s okay. We can get along just because our minds think differently, but that’s not how we live now is it? Now, if we have power, we try to make everyone be exactly like us. If we don’t have power, we feel completely depressed and so on. So spirituality is about waking up to the fact that you are in there. You are looking at the semi learned experiences and your heart. I didn’t talk about the heart yet, what people write me all the time, but what do I do if my emotions are so strong and so toxic that I can’t stay in the seat of consciousness and I’m just absorbed? I’m lost in my emotions. Okay, let’s talk about emotions. Ever been there, ever had trouble with your emotions, ever had so much trouble you don’t even want to live? What are your emotions that stuff you stored in there?

It’s energy. The rattlesnake does not come in. The rattlesnakes sees out there, but the experience is an energetic experience. You feel it inside just as if it’s in there. Alright? She said something to you and left. She’s still not saying it. She’s gone, but it’s in there still. What’s left? The energy of the experience, the impression. It’s an energetic experience that you’re having. First of all, do you understand if I say that, is that weird? It’s an you feel it. It’s a feeling. It’s not the actual thing. How about this? It gave off vibes. The vibe came in. You had to deal with the vibe. It was a bad vibe. It was a good vibe. Well, the vibe is not the thing. The thing gave off vibes. The vibe, the energetic experience came in. What did you do with that energetic experience? You said, I don’t want to experience this.

I don’t like this. No, no. I do not want that coming into me. So what do you do? You have will not dealing with form. Now you’re dealing with energy. It came in as energy. You have will. Will is a power inside do you not? Can you push that thing away? Do you have hands in there that can push away things you don’t want to feel? That is called willpower. It’s a force. You use that force to oppose the force of the vibration that came in of the energy that came in. Do you know what that feels like? Do you ever do that? Do you ever resist something inside? When you resisted it stays. It stays because you didn’t let it go. You kept it in there, you pushed it away. You said, no, don’t you come in here. You happened. I can’t stop you from happening, but hell, if I’m going to feel this thing all the way back where I live, right back inside of me, I’m going to keep this thing at a distance.

Can you feel what that feels like? Do you do that? You do it all the time. You resist inside. You use your willpower to resist. When you do that, you have stored that energy. How do you store energy? Energy moving. It can’t store. It’s neither created nor destroyed and it’s always in motion. You store it by resisting it. That’s like a wall that you put up and the energy tries to move but it can’t, so it circles around itself. This is the absolute truth. You go deep inside yourself. You’ll see it once. You’ll never forget it. It circles around that wall of will. Now it can move. Now it can keep all of its power and tendency that it had. It scared you. It was this, it was that. All of this energy, the exact energy of it, it’s still there. It didn’t pass through.

It’s circling around your will and that is what a sub scar is. That is what a blockage is. That is what you did with mommy and daddy and girlfriend and boyfriend and first husband and third husband. 15th. You had some trouble. That is what you did with those things. You stored them inside. How do you know? Because they come back up, don’t they in your dreams and they come back. Somebody said something, they come back up. You had a thought can bring it back up. Yes or no, they’re still in there. So that’s what you stored in there. Now what happens? There’s other energy in there called Shakti chi bureau being of energy. When you feel love, what do you feel? Energy. When you get excited, what do you feel? Energy. When you feel enthused. Oh god, I can’t wait to go to, I’m almost so inspired.

What do you feel? Energy. Well that energy flows inside of you. It’s part of your spiritual being. It flows up, up. It’s always up. Love is up. Inspiration is up. Excitement is up. It’s up. I feel up today. You don’t use the word, I’m up today. I’m down today. That’s your energetic state. That’s your Shakti flow. Very good. Wouldn’t it be nice to be up all the time? Take the highest you’ve ever been. I don’t care what caused it the highest you’ve ever been and multiply times a hundred thousand and have it going on all the time, every moment of your life and that’s your backdrop of your life. Who wants that? You are that. You are that right now. Well, why don’t I feel it? Because you blocked it. How did I block it? By those things that you stored inside. Energy is energy.

Energy dances with energy will was a willpower, energetic power. You used it to suppress the energy that came in. Now you energy that flowing inside can’t make it past that pocket of energy. It’s all energy, okay? It’s an energetic thing you’re dealing with inside. It’s energy dancing. It’s the dance of Shakti. We’re talking yoga now. You understand that? So it tries to come up. What does the energy, the beauty, your love, your inspiration, that beautiful stuff you have in there, God inside comes up. What happens? It hits that blockage. It hits that stored pocket of energy that’s circling around itself. That’s like putting a rock. Here’s water flowing beautifully down a stream. It’s just flowing. Oh, it’s beautiful. Put a rock in one rock. What happens? Currents. Eddie sprays disturbance. When motion hits non motion, it causes disturbance because the energy gets disturbed. That’s what’s going on inside of you.

That is what an emotion is. That is what an emotion is. Here, watch this. I’m going to put a rock in there. I’ll stick of some scar in there in this beautiful energy flow. Now what’s going to happen? It’ll spray this way, that way it’ll get a current, well, let’s name them This spray is guilt. This spray is knee. This spray is fear. This spray is anxiety. This spray is jealousy. Those are just energies he gave name to. Energies. What’s jealousy? Oh, a very difficult energy. What’s anger? What’s insecurity? What’s the self-consciousness? What’s embarrassment? They’re energies. There are disturbances in the energy flow. They’re Star Wars. He felt a disturbance in the force. Don’t you feel disturbance in the force in there? So when someone writes and says, oh my God, since she left me, he left me, my heart is broken. I feel so much pain, I can’t even handle it.

I can’t even go to work. I again, what’s happening? The energy that used to flow inside of you that gave you at least a little inspiration to go to work. At least earn the money or something, right? I don’t care. Go to work. At least get your weekends. At least add something. You’re not laying around like a basket case, but now you are. Why? Because you stored this stuff. It got hit. Now your Shakti flow can’t flow past it. It’s hitting it constantly. Therefore, the thoughts are generated because of that. Your heart. Someone once said to me, the heart is the root of the mind. That is true. If your heart is disturbed, I know what your thoughts are. They’re probably about that disturbance. In fact, if your heart’s really disturbed, those are your only thoughts. Have her leave you and you loved her with all your heart.

I’m not wishing this on you, but have that happen. What does it mean your heart broke? It’s an energetic experience. What does it mean? It means the energy that used to flow into your heart and used to flow through at least some. And when you were with him, it flowed through all the time. It was beautiful or her alright, but sometimes it flowed out and sometimes it gave you inspiration a good way. There was some energy in there flowing through. Now there’s not. Now a block has been created that hard. It can’t flow or it used to flow. It’s called closed by the way you close it to protect yourself from the energy that’s going to hit all that stuff. I don’t want to feel this pain. So you closed yourself. Now there’s more pain because the energy flows less and it feels like it’s bouncing off.

The walls in there like razorblades are in there. Yes or no? That’s what’s happening. It’s not an emotion. It’s an energetic experience, not a very nice one. And when that is going on at that level, I assure you every single one of your thoughts are about that. The heart is the root of the mind. So that’s what’s going on. It’s all about the blockages. Spirituality is all about not storing those things, letting go of them, purifying the heart, which will purify the mind. It is not about controlling the world so it be the way that your stuff needs it to be because no one has ever done that and the ones who tried to do it made a big mess, didn’t they? Hitler, Stalin tried to use their power to force everything to be the way. If you see a person trying to make things be the way they want and have the power to do that, they’re the weakest person in the entire world.

That means they can’t handle anything not being the way they want it to be. A strong person is zen a person? Roses are red water’s, blue grass is green. Okay, now what doesn’t mean you don’t interact with the world. You do interact with the world. Once you’re clear, you still have your opinions and you have the right to march and carry signs out of love, out of compassion, not out of anger or need or being caught in your personal way. This is my way. Do you understand that? Like Gandhi, he did a change. The whole nation with a sah with non-violence. You don’t have to take your position and fight for it. You have to respect that others are the way they are and you’re able to handle. That’s the key. Can you handle this world? A wise person? Done everything they’re right. How could you possibly be?

Right? That’s all relative from where I’m standing. You’re wrong. Well, I’ll bet that’s true. So where I’m standing, you are wrong. I’ll bet that’s true too. Now what are you going to do with that? And you just get to the point where you wake up and you realize the only place where’s peace and harmony is in the self is take that step back. Simon says, take a giant step back into the consciousness that’s aware of your thoughts. Don’t fight your thoughts. Don’t deny them. They’re not right or wrong, they’re just the cellular experiences. Well, what do I do with emotions that are tearing me apart? You honor what’s going on? I stored this stuff in me and now it’s not matching what used to match. You used to tell me you love me. It meant so much to me. Please tell me again. No, I don’t like you anymore.

Don’t see that. Now, do you understand what’s going on? What do I do about that? You start way before that moment and you let go of what? Your stuff suppress it. No, you start practicing letting things pass through the little things in life. The driver in front of you, the red light. I know ever since he used to be a first car mechanic and enthusiast when he was in high school and stuff and he doesn’t like stopping at lights. I know that. I see that, right? He considers him a waste. That’s a waste of my life to have to stop at a red light. I’m not doing anything. I’ve worked with him over the years, but I still see if I’m driving up to a light, if I’m driving up and it’s green, he wants to make it through. Other thing changing, right? There’s just this little, little bit of something there like that, right?

I love it because I’m conscious enough to see it and you have any stuff like that. Little anxiety, a little, this little desires thing, right? Well, you make it a game. You play with it. You don’t have to get rid of it. That’s ridiculous. But you don’t own it. You don’t define it. I’m the one who doesn’t like L. You just have fun with it. You should get that interstate in a state that it’s so light. It’s so fun. It’s like having a little pet in there. Oh hi. There you are. Hi. But it doesn’t bother you. How? By letting go. One. When things happen from now on, not big things. You take care of those later, right? There’s the essence of everything I learned 55 years doing this every moment in my life. There are small things that happen that bother you. A smell the driver in front of you, stopping at the light, the weather, it’s hot.

You get a spot in your, you gained the pound gone. Are there not small things that bother you that wouldn’t bother anybody else but they bother you? Do you really want that to run your life? How about we practice with the small things? Relaxing. The opposite of resisting is relaxing. Listen to me, the opposite of that. Resisting we talked about where you push away is relax. You cannot assert will when you’re relaxing. You’re using your will to relax. You’re being open. It’s judo. When you relax, it goes through you. But I say the oak tree can be blown down in a hurricane, but the grass doesn’t. It bends be the grass. It comes in. It’s hot. Yep, it’s hot. Wow, look, it’s hot. I love it. It’ll be over soon. You’ll step into the air conditioning in two seconds. What are you doing? Creating anxiety and not liking and build this junk and you going so hot You can’t imagine hot it was.

It’s over. It’s not hot anymore, right? You just got lost in the fact that you couldn’t handle a moment of some that’s not comfortable. Relax through it. Start doing that with the small things, which small things, all of them. It’s like practicing the piano. You can’t play the piano immediately when you sit down, you play the scales. You play twinkle, twinkle. You do little things. Same thing with a sport. You practice a sport, do you not? I see myself teaching the same thing I have to. Do you not practice an instrument? Do you good at it? Do you practice a sport to you’re good at it? Why don’t you practice letting go? It’s a sport. It’s an inner sport and it’s much more fun and the fruits are phenomenal. It’s not like you win an award, a gold medal and a sport. You hang on the wall, you get good at this.

There’s no wall anymore. It’s just pure Shakti pouring through you being feeding you every moment of your life. The rewards are incomprehensible. Will you do it? Will you stop thinking the world is supposed to be the way you want and let go of this thing you’ve built in that has a want? The great way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. How do you have no preferences? Relax through the events and you won’t store them in there. But then what happens? The ones that already stored, be careful. I’m telling you the truth. The ones that are already stored in there will start coming up by themselves. No, you want that to happen. You don’t want them in there. Why would they come up by themselves? Because you didn’t put stuff on top of them. Notice that the problems of the day are the ones you think about the most at night.

If you didn’t store anything, the deeper stuff starts coming up by itself. Do I need a therapist? You’re welcome to have one, but God is your therapist. The Shakti is your therapist. You don’t want that stuff in there. I don’t care if she spent your whole life circling around a blockage. You start releasing that blockage. She’s coming up. She’s going to push that stuff out of the way. It does not want that blockage in the way the Hoover Dam was built how many years ago it is been up there stopping the river. If one crack happened in that dam, that river is still trying to get through the full power. That is true. The Shakti. Shakti wants to go back to Shiva. She wants to go home and you won’t let her. Why? Because she comes back up. You push back down, start letting go.

Isn’t that what I teach? That’s what surrender me. Surrender does not mean say yes to everything in the world. Surrender means inside first. Let go of your stuff that it hit, let go, surrender. Then come out clear and see whether somebody’s supposed to be doing alright. You become a letting go machine. If somebody asks who are you? You have one self concept. I’m the one who, lets go. Not my will, but I will. Alright, so we started by saying the spirituality isn’t what you think it is. It’s not about, oh, I want to be high. It’s about getting rid of why you’re not high. Then you’re always high. There’s nothing you have to do. It’s your natural state. Will you work on these things? You’re capable of doing this and to whatever degree you do it, you bring more light into the world. You change somebody else just with your energy because it’s vibrating at a different level. Alright, thank you for listening. Thank you for letting go.

Tami Simon: You’ve been listening to The Michael Singer Podcast, produced by Sounds True in partnership with Shanti Publications. For more information on Michael’s body of work and all back episodes, please join us at MichaelSingerPodcast.com. Thanks so much for listening. Sounds True: waking up the world.