E63: From Mind to Enlightenment: Understanding the Layers of the Self

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Michael Singer: Jai Guru Dev, Jai Masters. People think that yoga is something you do on a mat or on a meditation pillow. Those are techniques. That’s like saying distance is about the measuring stick. You have implements and instruments that carry about the purpose of something. That’s all that the asana are. That’s all meditation is. That’s all mantra is. That’s all the disciplines, everything. Their techniques that lead to yoga. Yoga means union. Union, oneness, merger. That’s what yoga is, the pinnacle and the yoga philosophy is all about that. But we’re lucky if we even hear enough about the techniques and try to practice them. So one aspect, which I touched on yesterday we’re going to talk about it, is that yoga talks about Koss. Most people don’t know anything about it, which is fine. I don’t even want to know anything about it. I’m into experiencing things. I don’t want to know about them before I experience them.

Once they experience them, it’s fun to know that they have names and that they have teachings behind them. I’m just very, I’m a feet in the ground type person. Feet on the ground. So what are the Koss? Let’s start to the top. You are the consciousness. You know that we talk about it all the time. All of you that here understand you are in there watching your mind, feeling your emotions, dealing with your body and receiving the outside world through your senses. Who’s in there? Well, that’s what it’s all about. Who are you in there? Where did you come from? What is your nature? Do you die when the body dies? It’s the most beautiful study that could possibly exist. You’re going to meditation, entering the laboratory of soul research. You’re trying to study who you are. You’re not going to find who you are out here.

Go to the als, go anywhere you want. You’re not out there. You’re in here. You’re in here all the time. You’re in here watching your thoughts, feeling your feelings, receiving from the senses and dealing with a body and dealing with a world that comes in and causes commotion in there. You are in there. That is the atman, that’s the essence. All these koss they teach are like layers. Eggshells, layered, eggshells. One inside the other, but the receiver of all of them is the consciousness. So the outermost kosher is your physical body. It’s called Aya Kosher. I don’t know why I know that, but unfortunately I do. It’s called Aya kosher. It’s made of atoms. It’s not so complicated. You got one? Alright? That’s not who you are. You are the one that’s aware that you have a body. You’re the one who can tell the body to do things.

You’re the one who feels the received from the nervous system. You one receives from the eyes, you are the end user and so we could stop there. Most of the science only deals with only that. If physics argues physics is about the physical plane, therefore we have no interest in what consciousness is. We dunno what the mind is, what thoughts are, what our emotions are. We’re not studying that. We’re studying the physical plane. They have the right to say that, but understand that they’re admitting that there may be in fact is much more to the universe, such as your thoughts. They have thoughts, they’re thinking about how to study the physical plane, but the thoughts aren’t physical, can’t measure. Now they have yet they can pick up a thought, but they know they’re there, but their thoughts are only interested in the physical plane and it’s not wrong.

It’s fine. I said it’s called physics because it’s about the physical plane. So basically you got one on Myo kosha, you got one, you understand it, you live with it. It’s made of atoms. You say it’s made of cells. No cells are made of atoms. It’s all made of atoms. It’s where it is. So that’s what you’re dealing with, but you have more than on kosher and you know do I don’t have to teach it to you. You have thoughts and you have emotions. How do you know you have thoughts and emotions? Just laugh. If a scientist asks you that, prove it to me, just laugh at them. I’ll prove it to you. You got ’em? Okay. There’s nothing I can do to prove to you that I have thoughts and emotions, but I know you know have yours and you can understand I have mine.

Yours are different than mine. Your thoughts and emotions are different. They act up at different times. They like different things, right or wrong, but you still are aware. You have thoughts, right? You’re not what is a thought basically when I said my life neuro part, my watching carefully, there are two ways that thoughts manifest inside yourself. Inside of there they talk to you. That’s that voice inside your head. It’s so prevalent that you don’t even know it’s there. It’s like a fish doesn’t know it’s in the water. How would it know? It never got out. There’s nothing. It just, this is what it is inside your head. Even right now is going on. I don’t know if I understand this yet. Not heard this before, but something’s going on in there. Yes or no or did I turn off the stove? Oh my God, if I set that place on fire, I’ll be in so much trouble.

Whatever. Do I look good? I don’t know. I drop something in my pants. Are people looking? Come on. Anybody got that going on his eyes? Okay, all the time. All the time. The only time it’s not is if you’re lucky enough to fall asleep or if you learn how to meditate deeply. Okay? Otherwise it’s going on. It is just talking in there about things, about you, about everybody, about anything, about what it wants and what it doesn’t want about. Does it ever talk about the past? Does it ever talk about the things that happened in the past that you don’t like? It just talks all the time, doesn’t it? Wow. It talks, but that’s not the only thing it does. Your mind also can visualize. Can you make a boat inside your mind? Can you see a boat? A bigger one, you see a person, can you see a building?

It doesn’t have to describe the building, it can just see the building. Your mind communicates to you verbally and visually, okay? And it’s going on all the time. In fact, if you see something, your mind talks about it, it makes some terrible image of something and the voice says, why did I see that? What was wrong with me? I don’t want to tell anybody. Come on, we can’t cue did it. Right? Okay, that is your mind. Fine. There’s a name for that. I’ll go in order, right? I skip the emotions. Alright, do you have emotions? Obviously? Do they talk to you or do you feel them? You don’t feel your thoughts, you don’t feel what you visualize. You feel your emotions. Those are vibrations at a different level than thoughts. So the yogi say there’s Anaya, kosha, your physical body, there’s pram, kosha your energy body.

That’s what your emotions are. That’s what your PR is, that’s what the energy inside your body is. Inside your system is. And then there’s mono kosha, which is your mental body. So each one little bigger, bigger, they’re just different vibration rates of the same creation like vapor water and ice. They don’t look the same. They don’t act the same. They don’t experience the same. You can walk right through vapor. Don’t try walking through ice. They’re the same, absolutely the same molecules. They do not change one iota. So the molecules do not change one drop. They’re H2O when they’re vapor, they’re H2O. When they’re water and they’re H2O in their ice, what’s the difference? How fast they’re moving? That’s the only difference. When it’s vapor, they’re moving very rapidly. Therefore they’re loosely bound, but they’re still H2O atoms and when it’s in water, it’s tied together.

The slower, the colder slows it down and the ice, it slows it down more and boop, it seems solid or it’s really not. It just has less space to move around. It’s the same thing with these Koss. When the vibration of the universe, it just start there. It’s just like notes in an instrument. Orchestra can play at different levels, can’t they? So it’s the same thing. The vibrations of the universe can vibrate at different levels and when it’s slow, when the vibration slow, it can bond together more. It’s bonds are stronger, therefore it becomes solid. It’s what you call solid. If it is vibrating faster, it becomes, that’s on myo kosha. It becomes pr, myo kosha. It doesn’t manifest in the physical plane, but you still experience it. You experience, like I say, emotions and you also experience energy inside your body. You’re not used to it.

They tell you to get it from food. It’s not true. You do get it from food, but there’s energy flowing in there. I’ll tell you what, I used to tell a story like this. You’re so filled with love. You feel energy because you get up and take on the world. Alright? He doesn’t call when he says he is going to call. How you doing in the billionth of a second? You have no energy. Then he calls you filled with energy then ain’t food. The food didn’t know he called. Okay, there’s an energy flow. Shakti prana, call it what you want. And that same energy field vibrates your emotions. That’s your prana a kosher, okay, I don’t have to teach do this. You live with it, you have it. It’s in there. So that is just a same substance of the universe. God, I don’t want to say that.

But the same essence, substance of the universe can vibrate very slowly and become the physical plane can vibrate faster and become the energy plane parto kosher in terms of you and vibrate looser higher vibration is your mind, is your mono kosher. You live inside these, the same consciousness experiences, all of these three shells within your body, doesn’t it? And it doesn’t. Simultaneously, you can feel something on your physical body and then all of a sudden you get weird. Your emotions get scared and your mind starts saying, oh my God, I need to go to a doctor all at the same time. And most people don’t separate these things at all. They don’t know the difference between their outer shell and these inner shells. But you do. You got a world in there. You wish you didn’t sometimes, don’t you? Can it get weird in there?

Can it get so caustic in there? You can’t handle it. Can it get beautiful in there? Nothing changes outside. Somebody sitting next to you, here’s the same thing said and you freak out and they’re going to excited. So the inner world is just the outer world vibrating at a higher rate and is much more etheric. That’s what the word is. Etheric. And your mind is at a higher rate than your aura, than your energy body, than your kosher. But those are three bodies. There are more. That’s what spirituality is about. Everybody’s living with those three. You got it? And we’ll talk about how to move between them and why you don’t experience them and so on. What’s the next one? Kosha. That gets more interesting to me. I’m not saying you read it that way. Have you ever noticed that? Sometimes you just get inspired that you just get intuition.

Just all of a sudden something drops into your mind, you don’t even know where it came from. It’s like a thought out of left field and it’s creative and music comes from there. And that’s all right. There is wisdom. Viko is the aura of wisdom. It’s not mind, it’s higher than mind. It comes from a higher place. Sometimes you have dreams and they come true. It freaks out, doesn’t it? Okay, your mind didn’t do that. It dropped into your mind while you were sleeping from a higher place and you think higher place is God. No, we’re not there yet. It is very scientific. So Ana kosha is the wisdom kosher and that is where intuition, inspiration, all these different things take place and they drop into your mind and then emotions and you carry ’em out. Just what it means to be alive. You all have experiences like that.

Some people more than others. Why? We’ll talk about that. I want to go through all of ’em and then we’ll talk about why some people can get to some planes and others and how to move between them and all that stuff. The point is, if you are having visions, if you have inspiration, if you feel just totally turned on and anywhere it’s coming from and then the whole world starts to unfold your favor, it’s ridiculous what can happen. Alright? You’re dealing with something higher than your mind. Your mind is just a bunch of thoughts and your thoughts can only, a computer can only know the data they put into it. You can do whatever you want with it. You twist it around, make it ai, do whatever you want, but it’s all about its data and its ability to manipulate the data so it doesn’t have data in there.

It’s not so smart. Your mind is exactly the same. It only knows what it has experienced. You can put it together different ways. When you go beyond that, that’s not limited to the personal aspect of your being, to what you’ve experienced yourself with your mind, you’re dealing with Aya koha, you’re dealing with something that’s much more universal, much higher, and it can drop into the mind and then you start dealing with it at that level. Artists, great artists see things, experience things, then they have to bring them into creation. Like I said, Beethoven, I love Beethoven. It’s crazy. Senator Gun, I’ll say that right now. So was Mozart really crazy because they just weren’t very balanced on their other layers. Their emotional plane didn’t do so well. But basically Beethoven, we say Beethoven is a composer. I like to, Beethoven was not a composer. Beethoven wrote down what he heard going on in his head, drove him crazy.

He didn’t think, well, maybe I’ll put this note here. Oh look, he heard this and he had to get it written down until he heard it through his ears. That was where he was at. I’m suffering. Just have it going on in here. It’s driving me crazy. I need to get it out and express it and let’s share it. Passion, unbelievable in it, okay? Very, very creative. Tremendous creativity. That’s kosha. That does not come from the mind, that comes from a higher place and you think a higher place is heaven and a higher place is God. We’re not there yet. There are times that you touch or this higher plane, this higher level of your being can drop into the lower ones and it’s very inspiring. Very beautiful. Alright, so there’s Kosha, kosha, mono, kosha, kosha. Okay, well what could be next? And this one I really want you to understand is there, and you can experience and you have experienced it, but very little.

It’s called annan, kosha, ecstasy. Bliss anon means bliss. You have a body just like you have a mental body and an emotional body. You know, do you have a body of bliss beyond the other ones we’ve talked about? There’s just a vibration rate of pure ecstasy, just total bliss going on and your consciousness is capable of dealing with that feeling, that experiencing that. I always say to people, and I don’t do it now because you can’t, but there’s a picture over there in the corner of a very beautiful lady called anima. If you want to see what bliss looks like, just stand her. Look at her face. She spent her life there. She spent her life there since she was young. When she was older, they used to carry her from place to place or devotees would pick her up and carry her from place to place.

She wouldn’t get out. She’d stay in ecstasy the entire time they’d put her down and thousands, thousands of people would come and bring flowers and fruit just to be near her because her vibration was such that it healed that it woken. Oh my God, she was a saint. Nobody voted. God voted all she was in aniah, kosha, that’s it. She was into ecstasy that exists. Ro Christian was the same way. So these great saints, they just glowed. That’s what the glow is at that level. Well, what’s beyond Kosha? Aya Kosha. Aya Kosha, the kosha. Anaya Kosha is the self, the consciousness that is experiencing all of this. You atman call whatever you want and guess what? I’m a deep conversation, but amazing part is you experience this, you’re in there experiencing those bodies. You wish you could have another more often, but you have experienced it.

Lemme just get that straight. Have you ever just been so in love and so enthralled in the moment that you melted into ecstasy? Very rare. It doesn’t have to be human interaction, it can be nature, it can be a sunset. It can be something that does what you say blew me away. You say things like I melted into it, I melted. When you melt, you’re going past those other bodies. You say things like, I felt like I was in the presence of God, but while you’re there, you’re not saying that you’re gone. That’s where she lived. You look at her face. Imagine that. Imagine living in that state of just having melted back beyond all these bodies for no mind, no emotions, not because it’s cold, but you’re experiencing so beautiful that the mind can’t talk. Ever been there, ever been so in love that the mind can’t say a thing.

It’s rare, it’s too bad, it’s rare, right? But you are touching this higher level and then there’s you, the consciousness experiencing that. They call it the, there’s all yogic talk. That’s the ottman. Is that the highest state? No, it’s not the highest state that you are capable of entering. You’re capable of entering everyone in the states. We’ll talk about why you’re not there and how to get there. But you are capable, period. If you took human birth, you’re capable of this entire thing. You’re evolved enough to reach the highest level. So now you’re the consciousness experiencing one of these different levels. Drop a hammer on your foot, you ain’t feeling anything else. They’re down there, right? Have your emotions going crazy? Have an emotional basket case. I’m just so in love, it’s going on. Have your mind go about his business, doing its thing bothering you.

Nice, bad. You’re there, you’re experiencing ’em all right? And there are times you feel inspiration and then you get higher stuff. Wisdom and there are very few times you have touched pure bliss, I hope. I hope so basically there’s the the consciousness that’s witness, witness consciousness. The only difference what we’re talking about now is what are you witnessing? Even if you sit in the seat of witness consciousness, which objective observation is beautiful, you’re generally observing your mind. You’re observing what your mind’s saying. You’re observing what your emotions are, which is good. It’s better than being lost in them, better than being pulled down. You get pulled, the consciousness gets pulled down into these different levels of your kosher of your bodies. So what if you make it all the way back and you’re not being pulled down even by on my kosher. You’re not even pulled down by the bliss.

Now you’re seated in the seat of self, but the seat of self means you’re the subject. Everything else is an object. You can be nicer object, not nice object. You’re still subject object. When you’re seated deep inside of the self and you’re not being pulled down into any of these objects, even in another kosha, even pure ecstasy, there’s a state beyond that. You start realizing I’m in here experiencing this and you let go enough to where they’re not pulling you down. That’s merger. Then you’re with Panama, pama, the great soul, the over soul. As you hear these words now you understand what they mean. Instead of being an individual consciousness looking down at these bodies, these shells that you have, including bliss, the body of bliss you’ve let go. None of it’s pulling you down. I’ll talk about that in a minute. Then you get pulled up and anyone who ever went back there and very few beings have gone back there, have let go.

Enough said the same thing. Christ and my father and I are one yonda reading wall biography. He talks about my experience in cosmic consciousness. He was there and then he was merged. That drop of your consciousness fell into the ocean of consciousness and that’s God. That’s your merger. That’s exactly what Christ was talking about. It’s where Nirvana, where Buddha went, where the great masters went. Yoga in autobiography says, when I merged for the first time, I felt my body was the galaxies. I was expanding at the speed of light in every direction throughout the entire universe. One, okay, is that the highest state? No. I have a nice talk yogis call that sabi, kapa samati. This is all yoga. It’s all yoga philosophy, but it’s not philosophy. They experienced it, right? Philosophy is something maybe is true and sabi somebody where you merge with form, you’re still conscious, but your conscious is not limited to your bodies.

I’m going to call them bodies. Now your cautious, no matter how high the shells are, it’s still your consciousness paying attention to that. When it falls back, the drop of consciousness, the drop of water consciousness that is looking down at your stuff falls back into the ocean of consciousness and merges and it experiences itself as the universe experiences itself as one. Okay, well there’s another state beyond sabi samati, it’s called samati. That is when even universal form creation is not distracting you. From the consciousness itself, from being consciousness, the great ones, very rare, fall back into complete void, complete emptiness. The Buddhists talk like that fall back into the formless. In other words, God, I can’t say it without crying God before he created creation, okay? The infinite eternal void, just consciousness, no form of any level of any vibration that which the vibrations are made of.

To me, when the Bible says in the beginning was the word and the words were the God word is a vibration. That vibration started. It all started the creation. As you know it vibrated into the emptiness and I told you I’m not going to do it now, but quantum physics is very close to being saying, you give me a substance in essence, a quantum field call it that’s omnipresent and everywhere’s around and give me a vibration, just a vibration in that field and I’ll build the universe as you know it. They know how to build atoms out of that. They’ve gone so far, it’s hard enough to talk about it. You all were taught that atoms are the basic structure of the physical plane. No, they’re not. They broke the atom apart into electron protons. That’s the basic structure. No, it’s not. They’ve bombarded protons into each other to this 27 mile long head drawn collider over in Switzerland and when, when some of them hit each other, they met for a billionth of a nanosecond.

They saw it break apart. It broke apart into quantum particles. Then they studied that. It’s amazing what they studied. They studied that and they found out they’re not particles. They’re really wavelets like light. They’re just wavelets and they act like particles, but they’re just wavelets that have properties like particle. Well, you’re pretty close down there. During the beginning was the word, the word with God understand that that’s what the om is yoga teaches the ohm is the primal vibration of which all was created. We would sit there and think, how could M create everything? Well, I’m telling you, quantum physics is very close. They literally say there are these fields, quantum fields, and you ask quantum physics, well, what’s the field made of? They say, I have no idea. We just know that if things agitate it and activate it, interact with it, it makes particles like a leaf dropping into a lake that still, it makes vibrations.

It makes vibrations and those vibrations happen in little packets, little packets, and those packets are quantum particles, but they’re not particles. They’re part of a wavelet and basically they’re right down there showing how it could be made out of a light. Everything you’re looking at is made out of this is not yoga, that’s physics. So now we’re down to the great ones. The really great ones, very rare, went beyond form. Back to the primal essence, God, the formless one, eternal infinite, always Ben always will be there It is without form and that’s, can you imagine they give names to these places. Why they went there. That’s why we went out here and tried to build things. They went into caves and meditated the ancient rishis and the great ones and they went so deep that they experienced these states like the story of Ram Krishna, very, very great, great being, very inspiring.

When he was young, he was falling into Samati. He was falling into these higher states at six years old, eight years old, and he ended up in entire ashram of the most famous ashrams in Indias. He had no money and nothing, but it all got built around him. He used to go into these states where everything would turn into light. He was just literally, he was into worshiping into divine mother and he would just sit down and ma ma and he’d go into ecstasy, anyone around who would feel the Shakti pouring off of him and he would just stay there for days and that was his idea of God. It was what he experienced light. Somebody once asked him, Mr. You act so crazy, you’re drooling around prime ministers and to get up and dance and sing. Don’t you get embarrassed? What he said was so beautiful. You go deep enough, you’ll understand. He said how you guys sometimes see ghosts or images that come in every once in a while and then they fade away. Some people see stuff like that. That’s how I see your world. You talk to me about it. Every once in a while a building kind of takes form out of the blinding light that I live in, but then it goes away.

That’s where he lived. Okay, well one day, a very high non dualist Buddhist came to him named Topor and saw how high it was and walked up to him and said, would you like to go deeper? And said, what do you mean I live in the light? He said, would you like to go beyond that? Does a state beyond that? He was so cute. Robert Christian said, well, I’ll have to ask Ma. And he went down to the Ali statue. He literally said, ma, can I go into the deeper state? And he came back and told to imagine to didn’t like that. I told him yes. She said, I can. And the story goes, he sat down a little hut and topor told him, take your attention and put the point between your eyebrows and never take it off. No matter what happens. Just keep your attention and the point between your eyebrows. So Robert could just sat down, put his attention there and belt it to light.

And Topor slapped him, said, I told you, what are you doing? And he said, ma, no, no, no, ma put your attention the point between your eye, right? He took a little shard of glass. It was in the corner of the hud, made a little painful little dent, his forehead. He said, you put your attention there and don’t take it off no matter what. And Robert Christian is great. Me, he did that first time he sat down, he did that and Ma came and he kept his attention, not focused on her, just focused and bam, he fell into Alba and he didn’t ever want to come back. He used to go down to that hut every day and just sit in that state for as long as he could until he says that he got the word that they put a governor on him that he couldn’t go past this state while he was still in the body.

I’m telling you stories about really great beings. You understand that guess what? You are it. There’s no place they went. That is not going on inside of you right now, right now. Well, okay, let’s come down to earth now. Well, why don’t I experience these things? Let’s just start with Anand. Mysia, that’d be a nice one to experience once in a while and just sit down and have ecstasy. Fear ecstasy. It’s there. You have to look past it to get down to mono mysia. You have to bypass Anand mysia and vi my kosher in order to lose your consciousness in the mental and emotional and physical planes. Silly thing to do. You do that all the time. You get distracted by your thoughts, don’t you? They distract you. You sit there, go be an ecstasy. Hey, I’ll touch you. Be an ecstasy. I wont obviously couldn’t anyways, I touch you.

You’d be an ecstasy and then have your thought, oh my god, who’s taking care of my child? She was sick. You’re going down there. You chose to go down there as opposed to sit ecstasy. You are distracted by what you have built inside your mind and what you built inside your mind are the things you collected, some of your learned experiences, things you collected throughout your life. You didn’t collect everything. You didn’t come out of samati, out of ecstasy because there were white lines on the road or because a plane flew by because a cloud flew by. You’ve seen all those things. Why don’t they distract you? Because you couldn’t care less if you don’t store them. I teach you this all the time. Pay attention. You let those things go right through. They come in through your senses. You did see the sky, you did see cars run by.

You did see trees, you did see white lines, you did see people you don’t know. Didn’t you store those suckers and there did you, but it’s something is strong enough that it affects your mind and your emotions strong enough so that you couldn’t handle it. Somebody said something to you, somebody did something that childhood stuff, whatever the heck it is. Talk to Freud. Okay, things happened and you in there, the self Aman, same that’s experiencing it wasn’t okay experiencing it. You couldn’t let it happen. You’re not going to talk to me that way. I told you you will never talk to me that way. I cannot handle it. Oh, that’s very good. Do you understand what you’re going to do with that? You’re going to keep it. I will never forget what you said to me. Well Mazeltov, congratulations. Screw up your entire life. What a wonderful thing to do with things that you can’t handle.

Keep them inside. No one told you not to. No one taught you how not to. They basically teach you. You have no choice. It scarred you, it left an impression on you and you better learn to cope because it ain’t going away. You just have to live your life with that. That’s what they tell you. That’s ridiculous. There’s nothing in there but these bodies and you do not have to store that stuff inside. There’s no super glue in there. I told you they’re very etheric. The higher the bodies are. That’s like saying because you saw ice, I can’t walk through vapor. Yeah, you can. No, I’m scared of it. It’ll become ice. You can’t handle the vibration that came in. And so you have will the self. One of the names for God in the yoga tradition is Chi Shakti. What is that conscious energy?

Shakti is energy. Shit is consciousness. They’re not separate things. The self, the ottman is ti. It’s conscious energy and it’s like I was using the example, we used to think that magnetism and electricity were separate forces. They’re not. They’re now called the electromagnetic field. They’re the same force looked at from a different angle. It’s the same thing with Chi Shakti. It’s not consciousness and energy. They’re the same thing. Consciousness focused is what you call energy. The power of energy consciousness being aware is just awareness, but focused awareness creates power creates Shakti. You can go deep enough in the meditation where you see that that’s what your will is. You go deep enough inside to where you’re clean, it’s empty and you start to come back and you see that if a thought comes up, it would’ve passed through, but you focused on it. It caught your attention, it distracted you and pulled you out of meditation or pulled you out of love.

Do you understand that? Didn’t it? I dunno if I can trust him. There’s some people that will never totally open no way. I’m not doing that. I got hurt before. Great. Now you don’t get to feel love. Congratulations. You stored the pain in your mind and in your heart. You pushed away the experience. All of it ties together. It’s not that psychology is not part of it, it’s just not the end of it. You suppressed it. You pushed it with suppression, you pushed it away. F before I talked away you pushed it away. Who pushed it away? He didn’t talk about you in there, but obviously someone pushed it away. Your focused consciousness, the atman, the self itself itself got distracted by it. It was difficult to experience so you focused on it and you asserted will. That is focused consciousness. That is what will is will focused consciousness.

So when you, the great being in there focuses your consciousness, you actually push away or clinging If it was so nice, you don’t want it to go away either. Do you had a beautiful experience, it was so nice, don’t go to work. Come on, you can skip the no, no, I have to go to work. Are you still thinking about him or her? Did you spend your day thinking about what’s going to be like when they come back? Did you miss the rest of your life? You were too caught in the thought and the emotion that you didn’t want to pass. You wanted to hold on to it, don’t you? But just call it clinging. By the way, there’s nothing wrong with this stuff. I just want you to understand what’s going on in there. So if you clinging to it because you liked it, that’s an act of will.

Or if you pushed it away because you didn’t like it, that’s an act of will and you did both of those because you focused on them and by focusing on them, they didn’t pass through your force kept them from passing through for two different reasons. One, I couldn’t handle it and two, I don’t want it to pass through. Okay? So that’s where will comes in. That’s the power of consciousness. So now you held that stuff in there. What happens to it? It stays in there. It messes up your energy body. It messed up your mental body and it messed up your physical body, doesn’t it? You all do energy work. You all do age doobies, okay? And you understand that if you are messed up in your energy body, that’s what acupuncture is about, trying to clean out some of those energy points. But how did it get messed up?

Because you pushed the garbage down, you pushed it down through your mind, through mono kosha, through Aya kosha into an Aya kosha and you get ulcers, you get tens. That’s what’s happening. I’m glad we’re talking about this. It’s all yoga. Yoga is amazing body of knowledge, way more than asanas and meditation and mantras. So if you resist it, it stays well. What do you do with it now that you stored this stuff in there? It’s difficult to live in there. Why? Because it keeps trying to pass. They don’t want to stay in there. It does not want to stay in there. You have to subconsciously assert energy the rest of your life to keep it in there. How do you know? Because it’s trying to come back up, doesn’t it? Does it ever come back up? Things remind you of it. Something stimulated, pop, pop, pop, yes or no?

So you need to build a system in there because your mind is not okay now why? Because you stored all your junk in there. I want to know what your emotions and mind can be like if you stored everything ever disturbs you inside your mind and emotions, they will be disturbed. Do you hear me? That’s why. And don’t you dare let anybody tell you anything other than that. Here’s the proof. What disturbs you doesn’t disturb her? What disturbs her? You’re blissed out over what disturbed you last year you think is great. Now what you thought was great last year you think is junk now it is just a sum of your learned experiences that you stored in there and then you got to do what? You have to find a way to live in there. It’s bad enough that those thoughts, you kept locked in there.

You kept the thoughts and emotions they formed in your mind, formed in your emotional body and they dissipate to go up through. It should go through. But these didn’t. Why? Because you said they were no way. They’ve gone out of me. And so you kept it inside but now it’s hard to live in there. So you built another set of thoughts and just mine could create anything. You created another set of thoughts to encapsulate those. Rationalize build. You built a little house in there that you could handle things better Denial. This didn’t really happen. I didn’t mean that. Okay, I’ll just never talk to her again. It’s fine. And you put everything in this little box and you develop what’s called an ego, a self-concept. I’m the one that does good with this and not good with that. That went through this total experience, but I handled it or I went through total experience and I don’t ever talk about it ever again.

It’s gone. Yeah, sure. Alright. Do you see what I’m saying? You built a way to live in there. Out of thoughts, what’s the psychology say your ego is your self concept. You got one. It’s something you built in there, a concept of yourself that’s able to put it all together and sometimes you don’t do so good. What happens if you got it all put together? All of a sudden somebody leaves you or somebody dies or somebody does something you didn’t think they would ever do. What happens? Ba falls apart. Come on. Ever been there? You got to learn from the experience in your life. Don’t not like them, like them. That shows you, you built a false sense of self that was built upon concepts and hopes and dreams. You just built it there and it better behave right People better be the way you expect it to be. And so that’s you present that as you and you try to be accepted. What good is it to build to fake you? If people don’t accept it, it’s hard to live there. If everyone say she’s making it up, do you hear me? That’s what they call ego. Is that what you built to try and live in there? And so basically it’s a mess and it’s a powerful mess. Why? Because yours is custom made for you.

What bothers you? Say how could that bother you? How could they be like that? I would never be like that. Of course you wouldn’t be like that. You didn’t have the experiences they had so you didn’t store the same stuff they did. Judge. Not that you shall not be judged. How can you even begin to judge another person? They’re the same as you have that everyone is the same as you. Your enemies, your political people that are totally different than you, they’re the same as you. They’re some of their learned experiences. If you had gone through what they went through, who knows? Let go outside of you. You’re going used to say, but by God’s grace there goes myself. That doesn’t justify people’s behavior. That doesn’t mean you don’t work for what you feel is right or no, but it means behind it all. There’s this thing called compassion.

There’s this deep understanding that you really don’t not like the person. You really don’t not understand. It’s just you’re trying to do your part to raise what you think will help. Guess what? So are they. No matter how caustic it looks, no matter how ridiculous it looks, they think they’re right nowadays. You really see it. You can You understand that to me that’s what compassion means. It’s hard to put a word on compassion and on Webster’s dictionary don’t even come close. Compassion is your deep enough to see that we’re all the same. The consciousness ultimately is in there looking at the garbage that we were unable to handle through our lives. And so our parents dumped stuff on us and first girlfriend and the boyfriend did and you became the sum of your learned experiences and so is everybody else. That’s compassion. But you can literally see so does everybody else.

Doesn’t mean I come out to work for what I could see that you’re supposed to, you’re part of the puzzle. You do your part, but you do it with love, you do it with understanding, you do it with compassion. We are all the same. We are consciousness caught in the sum of our learning experiences and trying to be okay trying to figure out some way to live in here that I’m not suffering. And we all kind of do it different, don’t we? But it’s all the same. So basically that’s why you’re not experiencing the ecstasy. That’s why you don’t have all these inspirations going on all the time and that’s why you’re caught in yourself. You’re caught in the ego. That’s a protection system. You’re try to make everybody accept you the way you are and behave the way you intend for them to be.

Especially people you’re really close with. It’s a marriage license. You’re promised for all life forever that you’ll be the I want you to be. And that’s why there are 50% forces and the rest stay together for the kids. Give me a break. There’s no way somebody’s going to be the way you want them to be. And if they are, watch out because they’re suppressing the sum of their learned experiences. It’s not like magically, I love you. I like everything you like, I’ll always be No, you will end up being the sum learned experiences. You can behave better, you can do different things. But that’s where people all of a sudden change and they just be totally different than we’ve ever seen that since all of a sudden he’s been marriages and relationships. Okay, so you start understanding why you’re caught. You’re distracted by the stuff you stored in there, aren’t you?

And it’s not comfortable because most of what you stored in there was not so pleasant and that’s why you didn’t let it pass through. You didn’t want it to go all the way back to you. I don’t experience it. So you push it away and you’re still pushing it away. Now what do you need to do now? You need to go out and make sure the world outside that folds in front of you doesn’t hit your stuff. And if it does hits the nice stuff, you like it when it hits the stuff that you like. God, you look a lot like my sister. I love my sister. She’s not young and can we go out? She’s a murderer. What are you talking about? She looks like your sister. You look like a movie. People do that. Do you understand that? I saw a movie once and God all of a sudden we’re in a restaurants similar.

Maybe you’re my soulmate, help me. Please help. You’re just, that’s the summer learn experiences. You’re not okay and you’re trying to make things happen outside. They make you feel better when they come in. People, places, things, every single thing, aren’t you? It’s a real struggle, isn’t it? In the meantime, you’re looking right past the state of absolute ecstasy and pure unconditional love in order to watch your so you can go out there and suffer. That’s the teaching. That’s the teaching. I really like the evolution of the teachings that have become. It’s not about how to get there, it’s about how to stop leaving there. You’re already there. You’re already there. Your consciousness is in the highest state that could be and you’re looking right past it at the part that bothers you the most. And then you’re trying to not be bothered. Oh God, please listen to me.

You’re looking at the part that scares you the most, that you’re most afraid of. You’re insecure about all this kind of junk and then you’re looking outside to try and make it so that it doesn’t happen. That bothers you. Well, why don’t you just go inside and get rid of that junky stored in there. That’s yoga. That’s the highest technique there can possibly be. You are being distracted. You very high being. You’re seated in God. You are, God descended, the highest, highest state, and you’re looking right past everything you created to this garbage that got stored inside of you and it’s distracting you every minute of your life in it. The highest technique for self-realization, the highest technique for beautiful life, highest technique for your evolution as a soul is stop storing that stuff in there and it will not be distracting you anymore. It’s not even forcing yourself to go up.

Why do you have to force yourself to go up? You’re already there because you’re distracted when it’s down. Now you’re trying to fight like get the elastic band. You keep pulling yourself back. You keep pulling back down because you have this junk in there. Get rid of it. That’s the teachings. But then the question becomes, wouldn’t it be nice that I have your whole past in there bothering you or maybe you like it bothering you. There are people who say, I like that one on a divorce, right? I’m going to remember what you did to me for the rest of my life. You can go and spend your life knowing that I will never be happy again of how you treated me. You’re going to pay for this. I’m going to suffer for the rest of my life. Help people who do say that, don’t they?

Maybe you did a little bit. Are you ready to let go of all that stuff’s in there? No, he shouldn’t have happened. It shouldn’t have happened 20 years ago. And you’re letting it make you suffer now. And you think that you’re somehow getting even with somebody or something. That stuff should not be in there. I have a motto. I ain’t perfect that. Believe me, if it ain’t happening outside, it ain’t happening inside. If it’s happening outside, we got to deal with it. I don’t have to deal with the future yet. Hasn’t happened yet. Especially the future that I’m afraid will happen. All you are doing when you think with your mind of the future is projecting what is stored about the past. I met someone and my mother, she so beautiful and now she’s gotten old and I got her genes. I don’t want to get old.

I don’t want to look like that there. Now you’re afraid to get old because you just projected what you store from the past and you push it into the future and the present. You’re judging everything dealing with it. But the worst part is you admit the past is over, but it’s not over for you. Why it was so bad you don’t understand. I do understand that it was really bad. I understand everyone’s got a story. Everyone has gone through something. Why do you keep it in there if you didn’t like it? Let it go. Give it a kiss on the head. Hi, I’m glad you’re over. I’m glad you’re over. You’re not in high school anymore. Whatever happened there, it’s over. Your parents aren’t going to run you anymore. You do not have to store that stuff in there. So what real spiritual growth is about, which will lead to you rising.

It will go up naturally. You’re not being distracted by the garbage down there is one. I always teach this here. My idea. Highest spiritual growth. One, don’t store anymore. You’re not getting rid of stuff that’s in there. If you keep storing more in front of every day, somebody to say hello, somebody didn’t do things. Your boyfriend’s talking to a girl too long, driving in front of you. It’s not driving the way you want. Too hot out, too cold out. You go, oh my God, I got my first gray hair. How many things are you storing in there? New every day? Stop it. I’m telling you, you have to learn to not put more in there before there’s an opportunity for what’s in there to come up and work it out. How do you do that? It’s not hard. If you want to learn to play the piano, what do you do?

Practice. If you want to learn a sport, tennis, golf, anything you practice, do athletes practice? Do musicians practice? Why? Because practice makes you better. Why don’t you practice not storing the stuff you say, but I don’t know how to. I know you don’t know how to, don’t how play the piano either, but you start with the scales. You start with something simple. I want you to go through the day. I want you wake up in the morning from now on and wake up and say, oh, I remember that talk. I’m not going to store any new stuff in here today so I don’t have more junk in there. Okay? And you say it in the morning, you go through your day and you will not succeed. And I want you to see, I want you to see, oh my God, I stored that. Somebody sat down where I wanted to sit at the lunch table right next to somebody, right?

And I resented that. So my mother tried to figure out why’d they do that? Did they not like me or something going on? They don’t know about. Go and make yourself neurotic or somebody sat somewhere. You don’t have to do that. Do you can learn not to do that. How? I don’t care. Use from affirmation. You literal be want instead of saying what’s going on. Say, wow, that’s beautiful. I guess I wasn’t supposed to sit there. I’ll sit over here. There, it’s over. Let it go, let it go. Let it go. Don’t store it. And where do you see what happens to your life? You’ll be happier for the rest of that day because you didn’t make a mess of yourself because you didn’t sit somewhere, right? So you practice with these little things and the next thing you’re going to know, they’re from all over the world all the time.

It’s hard to answer everybody, right? And the vast majority, what we get are thank yous from all over the world. God, it changed my life. What did not storing more stuff. Of course it changed your life. You didn’t store more stuff. It was over when it was over. And then once you learn to do that, then all of a sudden something bigger will come out. Something that used to bother you. And you look at it, you say, maybe I can handle this this time. Maybe I can let it go. Maybe it doesn’t have to be in there. What my sister did when we were five, there’s junk in there, in there. Now that you’ve practiced with the little things, something’s going to come up and it will come up because it doesn’t want to be in there. It’s always been trying to push its way up, hasn’t it?

And you sit there and say, okay, and that’s where relax and release comes from. That’s where surrender comes from. You don’t think the surrender means do anything the outside world tells you to do. That’s ridiculous. If a drug addict comes up to you, says, here, try this heroin. Well, Mickey said to surrender, no, he did not. What he said was, inside you’ll feel resistance to things and therefore you store them. Relax and release. Surrender your control of what’s going on inside. Let it pass, then come out and deal with it properly. Whatever you want to do. The point is you just don’t build inside. I had this terrible experience. Oh my God, isn’t a drug addict came up to me and you start telling everybody that for a week. Well, good. And you just ingrained it so deep inside yourself, you screw your life because somebody else had a problem.

You understand that? So you relax and release and you practice. And over time you start letting go to stuff. And what happens? You start feeling joy. Why? I told you why? Because you are made of joy. Because you have to look through this ecstasy in order to look at that chunk and it distracts you and pulls you down there, holds you down there. So if you let it go, all of a sudden I being pulled down and you start feeling Shakti flow through you. You start feeling your energy body being beautiful, you start feeling bliss. At some point you feel bliss. Bliss. Literally just wave upon wave. It starts waving through you for no reason. Anytime you watch this wave your hand, it’s bam, it’s flowing through you. That’s who you are. But you’re being pulled down past that state because you stored this garbage.

You want to grow spiritually. Yes, I’m meditate. Yes, go to yes, please do this because when was said and done, if you don’t do this, you’ll be talking about the nice experience you had. Oh, I met this guru with so much and I got shati pot. And so now, well a husband, when I get along and I want to go back, I want to go back. I wish I’d stayed there. And it was an experience you had rather than a state of being that you’re in. When it’s said and done, there’s nothing you have to do except enjoy who you are. And then come down and bring that beauty onto this plane. There’s a talk about yoga for you, okay? Remember s Kosha? Aya Kosha vi ottman. Alright, I hope it helps. I hope it inspires you to realize you’re a very, very great being. You’re not here to suffer. You’re here to beg. You’re not here to try and make it be the way you need it to be because you’re not okay. You’re here to find out how to be okay and then bring love down.

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